Free fall...

Ok!

So, I am lying down on the floor with half of my body on the spiral stairs and the other half on the concrete. There is sharp pain shooting out from my elbows, my thigh, my shin, and my thigh to my feet is now wet from the pool of water I am lying down in. 

I just slipped and fell on my way down the stairs.

I think the annoying part is when a friend later said to me “HOW did you fall?”

“Oh, I just thought the stairway looked like an amazing landscape to try out my new-found abilities to fly!”

Depression is a tool...

I sat down in the study staring at the screen, cursor blinking, mind blank, desktop covered with chocolate wrappings, an empty cup on one side, books piled in a corner, unshaven, unwashed – and unhappy. The time was about 3am. 

You have seen the movies: Girl gets dumped and she locks herself up for days till a friend comes in to find her drowning in chocolate and icecream, fetid from not having a bath and with streaks of makeup where tears have washed off what would have made her appear more beautiful. I was at that same point; depressed with a capital “D”!

Can’t give details, but it had to do with work-related changes and how much that affected me. It also involved someone who was (and who remains) dear to me. My wife (the angel) was good as always, trying to cheer me up, making the best meals and all that stuff… Even my son tried too; he crawled in love-shaped circles around me, and at some point tried to say the words in ‘babynese’: “John, or dad, or you lovely man with the shaggy beard, it will be alright…”

Ok, I made that up!

However, if there is something I am lousy at, it is staying depressed for long. I have always had a need to “make it happen” – and suddenly, in my depression, I had an epiphany.

XTsamurai Interview

OK!

So here I am right in front of the cams, doing an impromptu interview which was really quite interesting.

It was done by a friend who co-produced and co-sang (if there is any such word) on the track which will soon be available to the public.

It's a song called "Shine in my Light"

Enjoy the video - and I would LOVE to hear your thoughts and comments.

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